Every time i have the chance to sit and do nothing I start thinking of things in my future.
It's like a speed bump, I see what's coming and I just hold on. I just found out i have to get my drivers license by august 22, or i have to take another test.(even though i could pass it with flying colors, it still bugs me!) I also have to go to Crafton Hills and do a bunch of stuff there. and then there's the thought of getting a job, and a car. It sucks if you think about it, in order to have a job you need a car, in order to get a car you need a job, it's funny how that works. And then i have my future to worry about, like my future career, I know what I want to do, but I don't know if that's what God wants me to do. I know these seem like little things to some (alot) of people, and you're saying, "relax, it's not that bad, you're making a big deal out of it." Well these are things that bug me, and i can't get them of my mind. Most of the time things are easy to get off my mind, but with something like this where my life, my career, my future, my family, my future family, everything is on my shoulders, it's alot to think about. I just know what it says in Matthew 6 "Don't worry about tommorow, for tommorow will care for itself. Each day has trouble of its own". If we take it one step at a time, it won't make it easy, but it will help alot. I know that these words really don't make it easier,(right now) but if you dwell on them, if you put your life to it and take it one step at a time, or one day at a time, things will get better.
4 years ago