Wow, What A Life!

Who knew how much a new life can change someone? (I sure didn't) December 4th at 12:45 I went from being completely ticked, to completely amazed at the beauty of new life! Lately I've become hardened to life, just sick of everything, and wondering why God does the things he does. But as soon as my favorite person in the world was set in my arms I didn't care about anything going on in the world right now, all I cared about was this beautiful baby that my beautiful sister made! Noah Dean Philips is his name, I'm not gonna lie I didn't like it at first, but it grew on me, and now I love it! God is so good! This baby who can't even speak, and probably doesn't know who I am yet, has completely changed my life, and its only been a day! Can't wait for the rest of my life!!!

When My Time Is Here....

And if you see me losing ground

Don't be afraid to lie

I know the pain inside my heart

Can't break the fear inside of yours

And if you see me losing faith in what it means to die

Don't let me leave before I know what lies beyond the stained-glass doors

Save sorrow for the souls in doubt

Bleed every care out

Will you carry me down the aisle the final day,

With your tears and cold hands shaking from the weight,

When you lower me down beneath that sky of gray,

Let the rain fall down and wash away your pain.

For every word we never spoke,

We have a tear to cry

For every silence like a wall between a better you and I.

So if you see me losing sight of all the death and life

You find the peace in every time I failed to see the death in mine.

life is going by fast, and it's gaining speed.

Just thinking to myself lately, "life is going by fast, and It's gaining speed." I was watching the movie "21" today and it has a song in the beginning, (I don't remember the exact lyrics) but it's talking about the things missed, I really took that to deeper thought. The things I do now that I hate so much, like staying home all day by myself every Monday and Tuesday, or things I like doing, like going to target and costco every Thursday with my mom and sister. Just little things like those I know I will miss as time goes by, it's actually quite depressing. I just know that we were not made for death, or for pain or anything like that. If I look at life through Gods eyes I don't see death, but life.

To Be Continued...

One step at a time.

Every time i have the chance to sit and do nothing I start thinking of things in my future.
It's like a speed bump, I see what's coming and I just hold on. I just found out i have to get my drivers license by august 22, or i have to take another test.(even though i could pass it with flying colors, it still bugs me!) I also have to go to Crafton Hills and do a bunch of stuff there. and then there's the thought of getting a job, and a car. It sucks if you think about it, in order to have a job you need a car, in order to get a car you need a job, it's funny how that works. And then i have my future to worry about, like my future career, I know what I want to do, but I don't know if that's what God wants me to do. I know these seem like little things to some (alot) of people, and you're saying, "relax, it's not that bad, you're making a big deal out of it." Well these are things that bug me, and i can't get them of my mind. Most of the time things are easy to get off my mind, but with something like this where my life, my career, my future, my family, my future family, everything is on my shoulders, it's alot to think about. I just know what it says in Matthew 6 "Don't worry about tommorow, for tommorow will care for itself. Each day has trouble of its own". If we take it one step at a time, it won't make it easy, but it will help alot. I know that these words really don't make it easier,(right now) but if you dwell on them, if you put your life to it and take it one step at a time, or one day at a time, things will get better.

New Start

If you haven't heard yet, my family and I are moving to CCHighDesert. It's hard but good, because that means change, (who dosen't like change?). Anyway, I get a new start (again). Everything I did wrong before, I now know not to do those things, but in no way do I regret them. God lets us to go through hard times, and make mistakes so we will grow in Him. I still feel bad for the things I did wrong in the past. It's just a matter of moving on, and try not to do the same things again, i'll still make many mistakes, but as i grow in the Lord I will make less, and less. A cool quote, I don't know who said it, but here it is, "What good are trials if we don't learn and grow from them, we'll just end up doing the same thing again". So anyway, I thank God for the friends He's given me, He has used them to make me who I am. I'm excited to meet new people, make new friends, and I hope they have the same impact in my life as my other friends! (you know who you are).

Nick Vujicic

So I had the amazing blessing of hearing, and meeting Nick Vujicic today at my church! This is a man who was born with no limbs, yes no limbs, that means no arms or legs. He is the most amazing person in the world! He has no limbs yet he is the happiest person i've ever met. I could go on and on about him, but just google him or something.

Happiness

If you try to find happiness in temporary things, you will only be happy temporarily.
-Nick Vujicic-